Loving What is

From "Loving What Is" by Byron Katie.

When you become a lover of what is, there are no more decisions to make.  In my life, I just wait and watch.  I know that the decision will be make in it's own time, so I let of when, where and how.  I like to say I'm a woman with no future.  When there are no decisions to make, there's no planned future.  All my decisions are made for me just as they're all made for you.  When you mentally tell yourself the story that you have something to do with it, you're attaching to an underlying belief.

I think this ties into the tension between urging and prodding yourself to act, but, also, going with the flow so that you don't get a backlash from your inner "brat" or inner "sage."  It also reflects the phenomenon that never ceases to amaze me that when I sit to meditate, tasks bubble up from somewhere, as if I were just a vessel being run by the tasks.  Fascinating.

The Positives of Pessimism

This article outlines some of the positives of being a pessimist in our society where positive thinking is thought to have almost mystical powers.  But the point that I thought was most interesting was this (the point is emboldened.)  I have found that it's a fine line between cheering yourself on and having a backlash.  Likewise, it's possible to arouse your inner brat by having a "to do" list that's too long or involved.  So I found this article to be validating in that regard.  Please click through if you want to read the whole thing.

. You undermine yourself.

A study from the University of Waterloo divided participants into two groups, those with high self-esteem and those with low self-esteem, using a scale from 0 to 35. After repeating positive affirmations like the ones above, participants with high self-esteem saw their self-esteem score rise seven points. On the flip side, the participants with low self-esteem who repeated affirmations saw their score drop seven points.

The researchers found that when people with low self-esteem repeated the affirmations, it actually sparked “resistance,” or a snarky inner voice that debated the truthfulness of those affirmations, which effectively lowered self-esteem

Read more: http://www.learnvest.com/2012/09/the-power-of-pessimism-how-negative-thinking-can-improve-your-finances/#ixzz25jPu0Yte

Follow up

So, no, not too much progress on the clean up.  And abstract still needs to be reworded to have 300 words and am at 520.  Yikes. Plus the projects are not cut out either.  So. Fail.

abstract research done

Though I woke in the middle of the night and realized that I need to completely rework the actual text of the abstract.  But it feels much more "right."  Will link when done...
And no, the desk is still a mess, and projects not cut out. Soon, soon.

still laboring

half way

more Labor

one more before photo. Yikes!! How embarrassing is that. And then my game plan to finish the abstract today.  Onward.

Labor Day Labor

So this is the chaos I have to tame this labor day.  LABOR!

Need to fully tweak the attitude to make it orderly, and in addition finish my Abstract for submission to SARS.  Next post will be a perfect work space, a complete list for my business, and abstract link.  Think I can do it??  Sure you do!!  You'll see...

Oh, and two projects cut out too.